6.5.21 9:06 am

I sit at the place where you will lay very soon and I am reminded that we are all just passing through. The pain that grips my every thought, my every breath, my every second is but temporary. Before I know it I will be with you in our eternal home. With a God that loves both of us more than I could ever love you. I am comforted in that. I know that you are safe. I know that you are at peace. But I am not. I hope that in time I will find mine. That I will learn how to live with the gaping hole in my soul that is your absence. Not only learn how to live but I pray with your help and God’s I learn how to thrive. Learn that you are still speaking. That you are more than the 4 lb body your beautiful, courageous and strong soul was confined to. Now you dwell in the house of the lord and for that I am thankful.  I am thankful that you know no pain anymore. That the preterm labor, and unimaginable pain you went through inside of me has ceased. We all hope for a time when the pain of this world will end for ourselves. The pain only ends when life ends and I look forward to that day for myself. I fear death far less since you left your earthly home and I thank God that this life is only temporary. While I’m passing through this life I pray you will continue to live deep inside me and move me to do your life’s work.